When future suffering conflicts with the present’s desires.
Would one be able to change their actions or deeper sense of self, even if they knew the outcome would be disastrous from a future standpoint? Ross, a homosexual porn-star, is about to find out when he begins having conversations with his future self warning him of his life’s path. Yet he cannot remember their meetings due to his overpoweringly deep focus on his own perception and will for his deepest desires. When a tragedy strikes, however, the core of his very soul is shaken, when love in the thick of sex, drugs, and fame threatens to destroy the man he’d somehow forgotten he was. Ross will soon learn if he can break the cycle that his future self had set out for him to conquer and whether these fading conversations will take hold in order for him to leave the love he so greatly craves. But will Ross be able to change himself when it is those mistakes and painful decisions that indeed bring about a change of a person’s destiny in the first place? Ross’s future self can only hope.
Tears crawled down Ross’s cheek in slow-motion like tiny shards of glass that burned and broke whatever dreams he had once held for romance and intimacy; thousands of pieces from an old mirror that had not only reflected what he had been too blind to see, but what he had been shown before by his own reflection – mistakes he’d made by his own decisions. He threw the bottle hard and fast where they hit the wall and scattered across the room like bombs, angry and sharp falling onto the bed where his own love had been laid to rest. And still, neither of them stopped. Lance looked back with a glimmer in his eye, where drugs had taken over what had not too long ago been a gentle and playful man he once knew to lay in bathtubs whispering hopes and dreams of their future along with movements of body and heart.